When you're used to keeping your eyes peeled for specific things, it can be kind of a shock to realize you've outgrown the need for those things, when you weren't paying attention.
So what are you looking for, when you're still out scouring the world? Probably something you never even realized you needed.
Sometimes you outgrow a tradition, but that doesn't mean the tradition has outgrown you.
Every now and then you have to pull on your old clothes, and for a little bit you'll be the person you used to be, so that you can connect with the people who matter to you.
That's not a bad thing. It's ok to remember. It's ok to look back and even GO back every now and then.